This past week has been a struggle. The
quiet times that used to be so intimate and highly anticipated lost
their luster. I argued with God when my alarm went off in the
morning. Saying things like:
I'm tired, God I just need to wait
till eight.
God it’s too cold can’t we just
have quiet time here?
God I just want to relax today can we
take a break and just chill?
In a lot of ways I equate my quiet time
to doing my duty and that has to change. By doing that I put myself
in the optimal position to get burnt out and before I knew it I had
no desire to do the things that used to get me out of bed excited
about my day. I know what I’m called to do but somewhere along the
line I lost the motivation to keep doing it. So today I decided
enough was enough. I knew my lack of motivation was spiritual so I
went to the father to resolve my issues. I didn’t hold back. I
didn’t shy away from certain topics I just laid my life bare at his
feet and I asked him to give me back my desire for him. Not a desire
based out of duty or obligation. I want to desire God like the
psalmist does in chapter 42. As the deer pants for the water so my
soul longs for you. I want to truly enjoy God and share that
enjoyment with everyone around me.
One of the biggest roadblocks that will
keep motivation at bay is hiding from God. When your prayers become
cryptic and guarded your heart starts to harden. Your spiritual
senses aren’t as receptive as they once were and before you know it
you will find yourself feeling alone and abandoned. I implore you
today to follow what Luke 10:27 says:
“Love the Lord your God with all your
heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your
mind; and love your neighbor as yourself.” HCSB
Give him EVERYTHING. Tell him how you
feel about the quality of your relationship. Be honest about your
frustrations to stay motivated. Love God because you want to and be
honest with him when you aren’t feeling it. Talk to Him even when
you don’t want to. God is our only hope; he is the only way we can
stay motivated to continue living this life. Don’t hold back.
Have you ever struggled to find
motivation? Tell me your story in the comments.
I'm doing a planner this year for the first time ever. I list my daily goals and check them off when they're finished. Of course, prayer and Bible reading were on the list. Having them on the list made it feel more like I was doing them to be able to check them off the list. My prayer yesterday was, "God, don't let prayer and Bible reading be something I do as a ritual. I want to really connect with you and spend time in prayer because I love you." Your post was timely!
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