Instead of making resolutions that I will not keep, I did something different for the new year. I took the time to sit down and write a letter to myself when I was as teenager. I was on the verge of tears in my room wondering where all this pent up emotion was coming from. It might be a good idea to write a letter to your younger self instead of trying to change your bad habits every year. My letter went something like this…
A Letter to Orianna...at 16
I don’t have a cute message for you. It’s not going to make you laugh or feel good about your life, because honestly dear, I’m disappointed. You are undisciplined, and your priorities are completely out of whack.
First of all, you need to go ahead and break up with that guy you’re dating. You can be friends, but it doesn’t need to go farther than that. You have this idea that boys will fill that hole in your heart and they won’t. They can’t carry the weight of being your God so leave them alone. Learn how to let God be your God. God gave you a lot of talent and that’s what you need to be working on, not constantly being on the hunt for a guy. The guys that are on your mental level are too old for you right now, just give it a few years and they will catch up. The man you are going to marry is absolutely incredible, wait for him.
Secondly, don’t get so worried over what you want to go to school for. To be honest you might want to wait a few years to figure out what you want to do, away from the influence of your parents. They mean well and they really do want the best for you, but they also have an idea of how they think your life should be. You can’t live your life for them; aim to please God in all you do and if you make your parents proud in the process, great! If they don’t agree, that’s on them. You answer to God first. Even then, you should at least hear them out. After, all they have been here much longer than you.
Last but not least, learn to give yourself some slack because you will mess up. A LOT. You only get one you to love. Don’t spend any more time hating your looks, and being self-conscious. It’s not worth it. Go out and do great things because that’s who you were made to be.
I love you,